after all im only a human

after all i am only a human

God, im so tired
i felt mad and im exhausted
i could handle baby blues...but....
isn't this too much for me God?

Im so sorry ....
this time of life makes it hard to be gratefull..
Im trying though...hard....
hum....sometimes I felt like I just wanna quit
but i need to keep going

Im so sorry God...
please help me,to be more gratefull than I am right now...
it's been weeks since
i lost my "rest" time
im tiiireeeed.....

had to get up at 4 or 5,
do the laundry,mop and wipe clean the
two stories house
wash the dishesh and all
prepare zee's breakfast and meals...
prepare breakfast,do this and that this and that...just never end
and had to be done before 9 coz...I gotta go to work
then work work work...with a dream that someday we can get rich
so can give more to others...
work done at 5 pick zee 's up....
and clean the bottles, zee's laundry for the day..
prepare dinnner, do this and that and this and that....
and start to work online,work work work till midnight
that plus....zee's criying, zee needs to change diapers, zee need his milk
wait, did he take his medicine yet?oooopopspsopsop....
sorry for complaining God, after all Im only a human... =)

that's just my regular no maid full time mom full time worker.....
and...I think I could still handle that....

But...zee is sick, ayah is sick....with all that and this?
Just me alone... alone....who's actually don't feel well
but who will play the hero rules?hahahahaha

Sometimes I just cried sooooo hard inside the bathroom
to let go all the sorrows....huiks hiks hiks
But it definitely makes me feel so much better
than I pray to Allah,please give me that super power and excessive happiness everyday
so I can pass my day with BIG SMILE

but Allah....I do complains sometimes
(who said it's gonna be easy?)
i know...but after all..
IM ONLY HUMAN...that TRYING TO BE AN ANGEL

Comments

[shinta]

be strong my dearest friend, I know u can make it...

loves-shinta

[DiNa-MitA]

I can't imagine doing both domestic and undomestic job with one baby. Sabar ya pit...

[kencana]

I know u can pass ur day with ur swit smile, say...
do ur best everyday n take care yaa..

[Sherlyna]

Great Mom ever, Succesful businesswoman I think..
Good luck and be patient, Pit..